I think we all do things to torture ourselves.. they make us feel human. .I am finding it easier to do some of the mundane things that recently to me were unbarable.. such as going to wal mart... they had babydays.. uhgg rip my heart out. go shopping at any store that carried maternity...and **** i work at sears portrait studio... do you know how many newborns I have to take pictures of... ive had to excuse myself to go cry in the closet! this just sucks. but it gets better... My heart is begening to heal.. Im finding that im okay at wally world now and I can even watch a babystory on tlc.. have 2 weeks off of work so hopefully when I go back I wont be as devistated... i had to stop the pregnancy daily emails though... they were too much for me!