Well we lost another one!.... I just cant believe this is happening... it tears me apart... im sad and empty... dont really want to talk about it now.. but will when its over!

We did it... were Pregnant!!! PRAISE GOD wooo hoooo I was sitting on the toilet and tested(dollar store brand). and while still on the toilet pant around my anklesssss and screamed TOMMMMMM, he ran in in the bathroom and asked whats wrong.. i said do you see this.. am i blind or is it really there.. he said he sorta saw a line... now that was like a minute after i peed on it.. so i took another one this time a different brand (FRER)and boom pink line right away... albiet faint it was there!... so doctors appt in the morning and beta came back that afternoon at 35 and prog was 45. wooo hooo. i have to go in Monday for my second beta and we are praying they double.. i think they are i took another hpt today.. and accu-clear and that has a level of 50 and came up posotive.. so it must be rising.. i must say.....GOD is awesome.. this is all about God.. all of this is because of Him..and My faith in him.. he does answer prayers!. PRAISE GOD

Well still no sign of AF.. but not alot of pg symptoms either.. just cramping and gassy... My temps are dropping too.. so my hopes arent too high right now! i had slight brown discharge onece on 6 dpo ... so i dont know... Tommy is still so faithfull and hopefull... I pray to God hes right.. i dont feel jlike i can dissapoint him again!

Okay I was bummed because the ultrasound said that I had all small follies and my lining was low.. so I was bummed but then the call back said that I ovulated.. progesterone was 10.9!! woo hoo.. two weeks and WE get to test... LORD GRANT US A CHILD!

Well my bloodwork was bad it showed a E2 level of 60.4 which sucks.. it needed to be above 150 so my ultrasound got cancelled.. i go on monday morning to do an ultrasound which would be day 22 and well see if it really isnt working or if im just ovulating late.. I need to get more hours at work because im just not feeling confident in my posing and shooting...each day i do good im off for a week and then go back and forget everything... i get drymouth and shaky and nervous...ahhhhhkkkk..