Well I just found out that my ex has had a baby a year ago and he so doesnt deserve it and her I am and I cant get pg for the life of me!! it sucks so badddd!!! I was so trying not to cry! partly due to af showing up! I see the doc on thursday! hobefully they can find whats wrong with me! I may have lypmoma! but we wont go there!
ugg well heres my ticker for today!

Okay okay so its been a while since Ive posted!!! School is going good.. homework is a bitch though... I just spent some time putting up a new website! its awesome!!!! go to www.angelfire.com/un/infertility It kicks ass! I am on ambien now so I hope that it will kick in soon.. usually I get dizzy and pass out... so Im waiting for it now...... thats all folks! (chews carrot)

Ahhh School has begun! I had my first class yesterday! It was so fun... even though my professor looks like my ex boyfriend.. thats a bit freaky! I got along with everyone! looks like Im one of the most outspoken in the class! not suprising there! our first look at 0 and 1s was very intimatading but if I re read my chapter Im sure I can figure it out! We had our first lab as well...we were supposed to take apart a computer but we didnt have that much time so it didnt get finished and I must say our groups was the most colorful..he he Tomorrow I have my first day of problem solving or in other words... MATH!! ughh Im dreading that... its been 7 years since I was in school and that scares me just a bit!
Okay in other news I have my own office now.. and love the privacy and freedom and orginazation.... wheeee hooo... I finally got AF! she only stuck around for 2 days though and that sucked... but hey october is just around the corner and then we can try again!!! I hope I dont have to go straight to IFV! hopefully he will let me do one more round of Gonal F! hopefully anyways! shit Ill even go back on the Metformin if he will let me do that! jeesh! oh and I have been so tired latley.... I cant stay awake during the day and I cant sleep when I want to....ughhhhhhhhhhh... I really need to get checked out!

been a while!

Okay okay so I havent posted in a week! well what can I say... umm how bout that ive been absolutley drained...I dont want to do anything but sleep and watch t.v and eat... am I going mental... or am sick who knows... I didnt even get AF and I got a bfn!! sucks!!!! I dont know what Im going to do! wait like always! Ive watched some good movies but im too tired to list them! ughhh.... maybe I can get some sleep! perhaps Im addicted to the sominex!